FINDING GOD
(in the MOST UNLIKELY of PLACES)
WHEN AND WHERE
Did you first
Begin to
REALLY find God
In your life
The TRUTH of the matter is
We only
First begin to find God
WHEN we are broken
When we don't know where
Or who
To turn to anymore
God is usually found
In MAJOR life changes
Like illness
Like finances
Like broken relationships
Or in a career change
Something significant
Has changed in our life
Something disturbing or unsettling
Comes to LIVE in our heart
We become broken
For me
The year was 1977
I had just come
Out of my third life/death surgery
Within a year
The doctors still didn't know what was wrong
With me
Yet I still
Couldn't get out of bed
I was broken
I was useless
I laid in my bed
In my room
Pouring out my heart and soul
To God
Asking him for help
Asking him-to LEAD me
“I have found David
The son of Jesse
A man
After my own heart
He will do everything
I want him too” Acts 13:22
I was a man
AFTER God's own heart
I was a man
After God's leadership
Just laying in my bed
EVERY night
PRAYING for a different direction
Any direction to go
“For where your TREASURE is
There your heart will also be” Matthew 6:21
I was TOTALLY broken
No health
No money
No relationship
No job
SICK-but no reason
I drove to
The Woods Run library
I read
EVERYTHING there was to read
As I crawled
Around the aisles
READING book after book
I became CONVINCED
I had Crohn's disease
I drove to my surgeon's office
With my findings
Waiting for him
To believe in my
SELF-called breakthrough
It didn't happen
he told me
I was crazy
I remained undeterred
“BUT if you
SHALL seek the Lord
You shall find him
IF you seek him
With ALL your heart
And with
ALL YOUR SOUL” Deuteronomy 4:29
In July of 1981
A doctor found
The inflammatory bowel disease
I can still see
His face
HE WAS STUNNED
The Doctor apologized to me
And said:
“You should be the doctor”
I can still SEE his face
ALONE in my room
Broken and bewildered
I FOUND GOD
And I know
That you can too
Robert P. Wallman
7-7-14
PS MISC. WITNESS 7-26-14 and 12-10-2022
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