I OWED GOD ONE

 

FEBRUARY 26^thth, 2012

I OWED GOD ONE

Many years ago, in a hospitalization that began on my 22^nd birthday, I had gangrene,

Peritonitis, blood poisoning, and a host o other things. I had emergency surgery and

Was given 0 per cent chance to live. I had the last rights, went unconscious and two weeks later woke up alive.

What I didn’t know was that my Uncle John was outside punching the walls and praying.

What I didn’t know was that my Dad was praying, “he’s just a young man, he has his

Whole life in front of him, I wish God would take me.” My grandfather, Carl Wallman,

Who was 72 years old and in fair health, was praying the same words as my father. The

Day that I left Saint John’s Hospital and went to my Aunt’s to recuperate, my grandfather

Had a stroke and went into that same hospital. My grandfather died February 26^th, 1977.

I have lived my whole life with a chronic illness and in severe chronic pain. I had always

Wanted to meet a woman and have my own family. It never did happen for me. My health, and my finances due to health, were factors.

Many years later, in a different city, I met a woman who I was immediately attracted to.

I will call her Jennifer for the purposes of this story.

Jennifer was a petite woman of not more than 100 pounds. Jennifer took an immediate

Dislike to me---though I couldn’t imagine why. I knew I didn’t say or do anything.

Jennifer had the three most beautiful girls---about 8, 10, and 14 years old. They were

A beautiful family of Hispanic origin. It turned out that there was some sexual abuse within the family.

I was never quite able to connect with Jennifer---but years later I got a card signed by

Jennifer and the three girls that read:

“we will keep in touch with you and remember you are in our thoughts and

Hearts as well as God’s.”

While it will never be the kind of love I had hoped for as a young man, I will always love

This woman and her 3 girls; with ”a spiritual kind of love.”

Jennifer’s birthday is February 26^th. I guess you could say: “I OWED GOD ONE.”

Robert P. Wallman

February 14^th, 2007

Ps Happy Birthday Jennifer---God Loves You!